Ardinessie Winona

lalala..

2010-06-15T06:29:00.000-07:00

hmm. didn't blog yesterday..

sorry.. cuz i was too engrossed talking to my mom otp..

um, i thought i could wake up early this morning to do homework..

but i guess a pig is a pig..

i woke up at 1.. zzz..then ate lunch.. (skipped breakfast)

then watched glee..

you smsed me. im sorry..

i didn't want to make you worried.

it will get better in time =)

got nth else to say.

oh celebrating Farees' bday tmr.

hope he will enjoy it!

dont be lonely Fareees ! :D

when you're gone..

2010-06-12T09:27:00.000-07:00

hi. blogging again.

well today i woke up at 1 pm? hahaa. pig..

then went down to eat straight away..

while watching glee..

hmm.. it started with a good mood =)

then read Princess Mia..

addicted to it..

basically, my life is like that.. so boring.. haha..

jika ada yang bilang ku lupa kau

jangan kau dengar

jika ada yang bilang ku tak setia

jangan kau dengar

banyak cinta yang datang mendekat

ku menolak

semua itu karena ku cinta kau

jika ada yang bilang ku tak baik

jangan kau dengar

jika ada yang bilang ku berubah

jangan kau dengar

banyak cinta yang datang mendekat

ku menolak

semua itu karena ku cinta kau

saat kau ingat aku ku ingat kau

saat kau rindu aku juga rasa

ku tahu kau slalu ingin denganku

ku lakukan yang terbaik

yang bisa ku lakukan

tuhan yang tahu ku cinta kau

jika kau tak percaya padaku

sakitnya aku

jika lebih dengar mereka

sedih hatiku

banyak cinta yang datang mendekat

ku menolak

semua itu karena ku cinta kau.. kau..

saat kau ingat aku ku ingat kau

saat kau rindu aku juga rasa

ku tahu kau slalu ingin denganku

ku lakukan yang terbaik

yang bisa ku lakukan

tuhan yang tahu ku cinta kau

saat kau ingat aku ku ingat kau

saat kau rindu aku juga rasa

ku tahu kau slalu ingin denganku

kau tahu ku juga ingin denganmu

ku tahu kau slalu ingin denganku

ku lakukan yang terbaik

yang bisa ku lakukan

tuhan yang tahu ku cinta kau

to my bro..

be grateful with what you have..

and i can tell you have EVERYTHING man..

you are still in sec 2..

you HAVE to study.. if you dont like the way she nags at you..

make sure you show her that you can do it on your own.

i believe that you are much much more than that.

you are wayyyy smarter than me. trust me =)

and NOBODY in this world is useless.. really..

how dare you say you are useless to this world..

you are the best brother i have. ( ken2 is 2nd )

remember how we used to have fun together?

we always play the cooking games and all?

you see you are useful.. you can be my waiter =)

haha..

my point is, you are useful in your own way.

you have your own strength!

you see, you can solve a rubik cube in less than 1 minute!

you even plan to do it with your eyes blind-folded!

you are much more than who you think you are..

for now, just study.. study as much as you can..

dont think so negatively of yourself.

it hurts me you know..

i love you Carel (:

im always here if you need me.

=)

2010-06-11T10:41:00.000-07:00

went to parkway today..

tried a few clothes at Cotton On..

not bad.. but as usual didnt buy anything..

then went to Berrylite.

Erny and I shared a large yogurt..

yummyyy..

hmm.. papa is in Singapore!!

obviously to go to the casino..

zzz..

um, anyway, congrats to Honey..

seems like she is smiling again =)

done homework? no~

revision? no~

slacking? yes! A LOT!

woohooo~

mad...

reality scares me..

i thought i wouldn't miss you..

but as i was writing the letters, i could feel it..

reality is really scaring me...

so many 'I thought's...

but the truth is far worse than a million thoughts..

take care.. i'll be waiting =)

learning to love..

2010-06-07T07:51:00.000-07:00

hi. so today, i woke up..

then webcammm. haha. finally.

anyway i dunno why my room got soooo many mosquitoes..

zzz.. amas said it's because nobody at home so the mozzies all come out.

zz. so many mozzie bites.. gatal..

then studied.. did emaths.. wanted to do the other homework..

but no foolscap. (excuses!) haha.

im going to popular tmr! hmm!

hmm.. today.. webcammm.. finallyyy.. haha

you were online and we chatted for awhile..

aku tau aku udah nyakitin kmu. maaf. aku rela terima apapun hukumannya demi kmu.

aku sadar kmu memang tulus tapi....

itu semua udah berakhir. udah lewat. lupain aja. aku ga mau kmu sakit hati terus.

maaf. maaf bgt.

i guess this is life.

there are people who hurt others and there are people who are hurt.

i am the latter. and also the former.

life is unfair, that can't be helped.

it all depends on how a person faces it.

for me.. i dunno why people are so greedy.

i alrdy help so much, maybe it's not obvious..

but they still want more.

am i really that useless?

am i really that blind?

am i really that selfish?

why is it that everytime i want to try to do smth, nobody appreciates it.

i know i'm only trying but at least i try.

is it still not enough?

haiz.. i'm trying to be a good friend but it seems like you just trash my effort away.

well. i guess i have to put up with it. till i-dunno-when..

just don't be surprised if you find me dead =)

=)

2010-06-06T09:43:00.000-07:00

hi. so.. um.. i had a nightmare last night.

hmm dunno why but it was kinda weird..

a ghost came.. my friends( i couldn't recognize them ) and I prayed..

we kept praying like crazy, hoping the ghost would disappear.

the ghost kept eating my other friends.

then instead of disappearing, the ghost joined us in praying..

he also recited some prayers..

i was like,"whatthehell is this ghost doing??"

okay whatever, then changed scene...

hahahah..

anyway today went for religious class at Woodlands.

glad to see the ustadz again =)

he is ~~single~~ married now.. haha. congrats to him!

the lesson was fun. he was telling us about ways to cleanse ourselves bcuz of some hadas..

then he was saying about how to clean ourselves after "doing business"..

he said," if there's no water, like for example when you

are in a jungle, you can use rocks to clean yourself after sh***ing.

but of course must use small rocks lah! don't use big big one!

later how to clean! surely very pain rite! hahahaha"

omg it was hilarious. today's lesson was super FUN. haha.

then 5.30 had amaths tuition. not bad.

inspired me to study =)

then at around 8pm went to parkway with Erny.

went to Cotton On to look for sandals. but none attracted me =(

instead, Erny and I tried some clothes. and I fell in love with this polka-dots shirt.

but i'm still wondering whether to buy it or not.

it's $19.95 btw =)

so help me decide please. thanks.

okay i look kinda unglam here but don't see the face.

it's the shirt you are supposed to look at, not my face =)

i guess that's all i have to blog.

bb =)

happy!!

2010-06-05T08:15:00.000-07:00

hmm. blogging again. no remedial today! =D

that's why i'm happy.

as happy as the girl on the pic.

im so happy i can fly right now =)

well.. woke up this morning feeling kinda lonely.

everyone else has gone back to indo.

left to sleep alone on the third floor.. haiz.

then william came back from a bazaaar.

good thing he got a GIANT tub of ice cream.

he gave me a cup (:

it has made my day. haha.

then we felt bored. so decided to go out watch movie.

watched MARMADUKE!! ta-daaa!!

the show is very funny.. haha..

then went home.. back to lonely room.

then william went back to indo too =(

hmm.. planned to go on diet but i dunno what happened..

it's not working. haha.

thanks to someone.. im really happy today =)

you have kept to your promise. i like it =)

that's all. too happy to blog.. haha.

bye.

sad..

2010-06-03T08:30:00.000-07:00

back to blogging. i guess this neglected blog of mine is rotten already.

just like how the owner is feeling right now. haiz.

had remedial today.

english was fun. Mrs Lee has really made my day =)

first time i nvr sleep during her lesson. haha.

amaths. mrs Ng also very funny.

need to practice doing amaths.

forgot everything about integration already. haha.

then lunch went to hawker centre.

ate the Fried Hokkien Mee.

some tragedy happened.

thanks to the aunty. haha.

then went home.

and there it goes.

the problem began.

haiz. i dont understand why..

some people are so unreasonable.

you all. i dunno what's wrong.

i always get blamed for stuff i did not do.

somehow.. being too nice brings disadvantage.

i thought of being generous.

but what did you all do?

instead of thanking me, you all stepped on me..

do you all still regard me as the BETRAYER??

you all don't even let me explain anything.

i have no choice but to just keep quiet and accept it all.

i get blamed for nothing.

i get scolded for nothing.

i get accused for nothing.

i get bullied for nothing.

nvm. i will just accept it.

as long as it makes you all happy..

i don't mind.

let me cry in silence then =)

~~let me cry on my own.~~

~~let me suffer on my own.~~

~~let me carry the burden on my own.~~

~~let me shoulder it all.~~

~~i don't know how long this can last.~~

~~but i'm gonna persevere till then.~~

~~till i die.. which will be very soon =)~~

yeah. i never thought it wil be like this.

i can't understand you.

i admit i was wrong. i'm sorry.

i can never make you happy. i dunno how to.

i don't want to give up

but i hope you can understand that i have my own life too.

i have other things to prioritize too. not just you..

so please.. don't hurt me anymore.

i'm sorry i have to lie to you..

special HUGE GIGANTIC thanks to Honey and Ci Wenny =)

thanks Honey for being there for me.

you might not say anything but by replying my smses i know that you are there for me.

thanks for hearing me out.

i fell much better now.

love ya Honey =)

full..

2010-03-06T06:31:00.000-08:00

blogging again..
woke up at 11 today..
had a very bad sleep last nite.. thanks to someone..
then went to parkway with hanny (:
she kinda cheered me up. thanks han!
then wanted to study but no mood... lalala...
so lazyyyyyyyyyyy....
zz.. gonna watch sherlock holmes later..
that's all.. bye..
no mood alrdy..

2010-02-06T08:45:00.000-08:00

04 February 2010

had maths remedial. as usual, cracked my brain to solve a question..

i really hope i can pass amaths for O..

j came. he bought me oreo cheesecake! =)

haha. he also bought me a couple ring. hahaha. the process of giving it was so hilarious..

it was supposed to be worn on my 4th finger but it got stuck halfway!

i was laughing like mad.. hahha.. romantic moments became hilarious moments..

but it was sweet =) thanks!

then the ceylon kids came joined us. we played at the playground for hours.

it was sooo fun.. felt so free..

how i wish i can be like this everyday.

~~cintaaaa... thanks alot for today =)~~

~~you really made my day. i love you!~~

05 February 2010

choir.. rehearsed for CNY performance.

nice song =)

xi xi ha ha... lalala.. haha..

oh and i got oreo cheesecake again! =)

thanks jafri! haha..

then went home.. nth much.. i forgot what else happened..

so today.. woke up and realised that i was alone.

hanny was with her father. Ahor was next door..

and so i was all alone in the room.. woke up at 6. dunno why felt so scared.

wanted to call you but afraid would disturb you.

so i tried to sleep again..

then woke up.. hanny came back! =D

then went to parkway.

bought stuff..

missed you so much but got to see you for awhile only.

like wth.. so sadddd~~

at nite went to downtown east to have bbq.

the satay was sooo good.. now so sleepy alrdy. decided to change tuition day..

haizz.. time flies so fast... tests coming up.. homeworks piled up.. waiting to be done..

let pictures do the rest of the talking =)

i am facing a vertically-challenged disease =(

~~i dunno why i miss you so much today. it felt good at first but after long it's like killing me!!~~

~~aarrghhh.. do you know how much i miss you?~~

~~do you know how fast you had to go?~~

~~and all the while you were like thinking about 'omg die..'~~

~~haizzz.. this is how it feels when you are accidentally in love..~~

~~lalala.. nvm.. i have to bear with it..~~

2010-01-30T20:33:00.000-08:00

the last day i can blog. will be busy again with school stuff..

just had amaths tuition. i realised that my amaths sucks. especially trigo..zz..

many tests coming up, homeworks not done, room still messy, stomach hungry..

such a troublesome life =)

VALENTINES' DAY is comingggg~~~!!

what will my Cinta give me?? hahaha

he said he needs the size of my thing.. what thing?!?!?! LOL.

lalala. hope i have a better week ahead..

choir please behave.. im a person too okay.. i get tired sometimes. i have my limits..

so please respect me.. and please dont make my job harder.

it's hard enough studying amaths =((((

lalala.. on the phone with him.. he just said IloveyouSayang..

awwww sooo sweet =) hahhaa.. fake lah..

ummm.. nothing else to say.. got to start doing my homeworks and STUDY STUDY!!

wish me all the best for my Amaths test =)

anyway im still craving for Oreo Cheesecake and Caramel Frappucino...

i love you Cintaaa =)

=)

2010-01-30T05:45:00.000-08:00

supposed to wake up at 9 this morning but dunno why...

couldn't wake up. luckily jafri called. otherwise i would still be sleeping

like a log.. haha. thanks jafri =)

went to library to meet meera and jafri. they were doing

a presentation stuff.. good luck to meera and jafri!

looking forward to watching ur presentation on Mon! :D

while meera was doing the slides, went to the cafe downstairs

to eat breakfast wif jafri.

had Oreo Cheesecake, Chocolate Truffle and Ice Latte =)

yummyyyy...

i want agaiiinn..

asked jafri to take straw.. didn't know that it was just in front of him..

he asked the girl then the girl replied " there in front of you the black colour ( giggles )" then jafri " ohh.." super dumb dumb..

then went to ITE to meet gp. jafri was super bored so sent me there. took a few pics while enjoying the boredom in the bus =)

smile Jafri.. SMILE!

shortly after i reached ITE, 63 came. gp and i were about to board

the bus when perry and honey suddenly get off from the bus..

communication breakdown between SLs.. haha..

then on the bus,i was sitting down next to a stranger

while honey was behind me..

a fat man with a protruding tummy wearing a pink shirt

was standing next to me. i turned my head to talk to honey..

all the while in my mind i was like,

"okay make sure i don't kena this pinky tummy."

unfortunately when i turned around to look at the front,

i accidentally touched the man's stomach.. LOL.

i was like " sorry " then he moved behind.. hehe.. sorry man..

honey was like laughing at me....

a lesson learnt : i don't wanna have a big tummy =)

then honey was wearing high heels. she became so tall.

so hard to talk to her.. so i was like, "Emergency situation. Let's go find high heels." So off we went to bugis.. i bought high heels =)

then went to play arcade at Iluma. wh got me a mentos sweet =) haha.. then watched Tooth Fairy.. FUNNYYYY..

randy is soooo handsome =)

then honey and the others went tamp but i had to go home first =(

so went home wif wh..

i miss my Baby out of the blue =(

a pile of works to be done.. amaths tuition again tomorrow..

why do weekends passs soooo fast??

i want Oreo Cheesecake and Starbucks.. aarghhh..

bloggingggg..~~

2010-01-23T20:14:00.000-08:00

blogging in the afternoon.. wow.. haha..
feel like going out but piles of work to be done by today.. haiz..
you apologised.. nvm.. let's just forgive and forget..
but i still wanna see whether you really dare or not.. lol

tues : fitness programme.. zzz
wed : E-maths test + choir
thurs : SS test
fri : choir..

don't know why.. this year no mood to attend choir.. i used to look forward to singing with the others but now.... haiz.. choir members : please work hard okay? i'm sure we can achieve gold with honours in 2011.. let's make the school proud.. please cooperate with the conductors. they are having a hard time teaching all of us.

~~well you may say they can relax but you see what is the outcome? you let them relax toooo much.. they are gonna be spoiled already.. zz.. so what if people say our committee is the worst??~~

you mean you agree to that?! you mean you want us to stay like this?! be the worst?! why do you care about what people say? why not we work even harder so that people see us in different perspective!?! i am sure we are much much better than the worst committee.. just that we don't cooperate that well..

and please don't make excuses.. eventhough we are SLs we still do our jobs as committee.. we don't come late.. we even help to stack up the chairs eventhough we got alot of things to do.. you? are you even an SL? no.. but did you come early and stack up chairs? no.. did u show good examples? i don't think so.. it's so hard talking to losers. the only thing they can do is just lie lie lie make excuses.. lie again.. lie.. if you have done wrong, just admit it then we can solve the problem together rite? zzz.. you spoilt my mood man.. i was soooooooo surprised.. i didn't know you are this kind of person.. i broke down... disgusted to listen to your craps and excuses.. sooo fake.. zz..

29th is coming.. 8th is coming.. papa coming on my birthday.. lucky he going back before valentines' day.. otherwise i will be stuck at home! hoho.. 14th feb is coming.. wonder what to do.. thoussands of couples are gonna celebrate it soooo romantically.. other people fall in love and live hapily ever after.. me? i fall in love and it's the end.. i'm dead.. hahahah..

lalala.. i doubt this friendship will last that long.. lalala.. mama i need you now..

freeze time for awhile pleaseee...

2010-01-23T07:45:00.000-08:00

today nth much.. wanted to go out but no one to go out with =(

everyone is sooo busy with their own stuff.. don't even care about other people's feelings.. nvm nvm.. i deserve it? i guess so..

went for religious class at 3.50.. fun fun fun! the family brightened up my day! thanks aunty mas and erny! =)

during lesson... did practical.. so funnyyyyy... hahaha.. couldn't stop laughing...!! oh and the pizza was great.. so goooood... oh and i got to ride in aunty mas's new car!! wowowwowo.. hahahah.. enough..

then went home.. and talked to you... it's always like that.. confirm got some unhappy stuff to talk about.. let's just take it as spices to our friendship alrite? i don't want us to fight.. it's killing me.. i love you.. you love me..

let's just let it be =)

2009 has passed.. 2010 is here... i have to face it..

i have learnt a whole lot of stuff..

for example.. i have realised that you are not my true friend..

i don't know why i was so blind.. i believed you but realise that i'm actually nothing to you.. nothing AT ALL..

not just you anyway.. there are A LOT..

then i have learnt that i have to be stronger in facing my problems..

i won't break down that easily anymore =)

enough lesson.... i have to get some rest.. not feeling well today.. like you will care.. nvm nvm..

aq ga ngerti sama kmu. aq capek tau ga. aq capek argue sama kmu.. ga ada gunanya.. km ga bakal ngerti. km ga pernah pikirin perasaanku. you are so much better than me but it seems like it's still not enough for you. km ga pernah bisa ngerasain apa yg aq rasain.. haizzzz... nvm nvm nvm.. i just have to bear with it.. my fate..

~~lalala.. for him ( i don't think you will ever read this ) :~~

~~iloveyou =) very much.. hahaha..~~

i wanna watch movieeee.. aargghhh...

2010-01-15T23:33:00.000-08:00

Hello there everyone. This is Erny AGAIN, nona's sitting right next to me. Omfg, her blog is like the most deadliest i've seen so far. 3 months already, like whud -.-

She's currently on the phone with Jafri. She wants yoghurt -hinthint- Later around 4+ she and i are gonna go for religious class. My daddy better send us there, the cab fare can just kill us lah.

Not sure if you've realised by now, i have nothing to say or do. Bye.

erase me

2009-10-31T06:58:00.001-07:00

i only have a few words to blog today..those who read this please tel ur frens who are my frens too..
PLEASE DELETE ME AS YOUR FRIEND IN FACEBOOK. I THINK I HAVE BEEN SPREADING VIRUS... SO GO AND DELETE ME NOW!! THIS VERY SECOND!!! SORRY FOR THE VIRUS.. I WILL ADD YOU ALL AGAIN IF I MAKE A NEW ACCOUNT...IF.. IF.. SO FASTER DELETE NOW.. BETTER STILL, DELETE YOUR ACCOUNT AND MAKE A NEW ONE.. HAHAHA.. THANKS..

=) =)

2009-10-28T07:03:00.001-07:00

i'm back! End-of-Year is over! will get back results on Friday i guess.. Today went choir.. Amazingly, we managed to learn 1 song within 2 hours! wowowowow!! J'entends Le Moulin.. Love it <3
After choir did the Eco Race thingy with honey,boonyu,sengyang,shankar. quite well done =)
then went to accompany honey to singpost to buy subway. met jiboon..haha so random. decided to walk home instead of taking the bus.. walk walk walk under the rain. felt so free but yet so lonely. reminded me of those times when i was with him. although it was onli till the bus stop but i felt contented enough. do you know that i miss you? you may not be a good guy but you were a good bf. it felt wonderful walking under the rain, especially with him by my side.. how i wish..... haiz... now that he is gone, i guess i have to be independent =)

Try by Asher Book (Fame)

If I walk, would you run?
If I stop, would you come?
If I say you're the one, would you believe me?
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say
So you don't leave me.

The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream.
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready but
I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough.

If i sing you a song, would you sing along or wait till I'm gone?
Oh we're pushing through
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
or tell me its the start of something beautiful?

If I walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If I say you're the one
Would you believe me?

2009-10-18T07:49:00.000-07:00

Yo whaddup peepo. Its Erny here, Nona's housemate, helping her blog. Because obviously, her blog is so freakin dead. I know you love me for blogging. Ok whatever hi.

So today, both of us went out to Orchard cineleisure. I went with my friend and she went with Billy :) She went to watch Fame and according to her, the movie is nice but not amazing.

Ok anyways. So after that, me, her and Billy went to walk around Orchard. We went to Paragon and due to boredness and no clue to our destination, what we did are as follows. We went to the first level, walked around the whole level, went to the second level, did the same thing. And continued up until the topetest level and went back down.

Once we got kinda tired and bored, we went home. Yay what a day right? :D

EVERYBODY YO. ACCORDING TO ME, ERNY, DO NOT WATCH Imagine That.

laughs.....

2009-09-03T08:17:00.000-07:00

today....sooooooo happy =D

had a fun english lesson with bohai, cecil and minh...

minh was so hilarious... bohai was pissed with minh cuz he called her " damn obese! " haha..

it was sooo funny.. cecil and i laughed like crazyy.. till i cried..

then after school played with honey... she was like so crazy.. we ran around the school like mad..

then accompanied willi to the barber.. he cut his hair! haha.. it's nice, though.. i like him now =)

anyway,, tomorrow got choir.. with the new instructors.. Ms Angela Tan and Mr Adil.. they are good =) hope the choir will like them..oooohhh i got into soprano!!!!! aaarrrgghh....!!! omgomg.. i don't want... =(

nowadays i feel that i have lost confidence in being the conductor.. it's kinda tough.. can someone pls rescue me by kindly replacing me as the student conductor???? i'm tired...

tomorrow geog test... and got back term 3 results.... nervous....omgomg.... what if i fail??? i dun wan... my guardian will scream at me... oh no... what if i actually pass??? MIRACLE... FAT HOPE, NONA!

haha... anyway then at home... as usual... tuition with the crazy kids at home.. then at night malyndo came.. we laughed again... then with erny... laughed again.. the first time in my whole life i had a convo with erny without mentioning the " JoBros " haha.. we were laughing the way her shoulders bob up and down whenever she laughs very hard.. haha.. she laughed till she choked and she cried... hahahahaha...

enough for today.. stay tuned...

btw, thanks rofi for lending me his laptop =)

=)

2009-08-31T06:54:00.000-07:00

hellowww.. i'm back... =)

today woke up at 4.45am! omg.. ate sahur then got ready to school.. fetched honey on the way, and reached school by 6.30 =)

the celebration and ACES day workout was very good! the SLs were doing a WONDERFUL job! well done, SLs! =)

ended school at around 1? then went to ecp to help stevanda's group wrap the fruits with marco,stevanda,billy. it was fun.. then yohana came later.. i love the atmosphere over there.. so windy.. so calming.. so peaceful.. if only i can stay happy like that forever.....wouldn't it be a perfect life??? but sadly, nobody is perfect...

then on my way back home, i met HERI!! =D he was with his.....ummm....girlfriend.. awww so sweet.. haha..we had a very short convo.. it goes like this..

me : heri?!

him : eh, nona!

me : hi..

him : hi.. waahh nona uda gede yaa.. =)

me : hehe.. (mringis ga jelas gitu..)

him : mau kemana??

me : pulang..

him : oooh.. ya udah.. bye..

me : bye..

lols... then went home and sleep straight away... fasting is challenging...

woke up at 6.50pm... then wash up, pray and waited to break fast..

after break fast, hanny and erny taught me the "hoedown" dance from the hannah montana movie..

nice... then the whole house was like sooo crazy... erny,hanny,willy,william,ryan,rofi,me,malyndo,aunty mas! we danced "nobody" , shuffle, moonwalk, etc... felt so gooooodd =)

anyway, tomorrow is TEACHERS' DAY.. i would like to wish ALL my teachers, wherever you all are, HAPPY TEACEHRS' DAY! you all have been very kind and patient in guiding us throughout our lives.. you have educated us mentally,emotionally and physically ( sounds wrong?! ) thank you for everything that you all have done.. WE LOVE YOU!! =)

anyways... tomorrow going to malaysia with the Ceylon-ians.. shoppinggg... muahahaha...

enough for the craps.. bb =)

lalala

2009-08-30T07:57:00.000-07:00

back to blogging again...

the fasting month has begun!! sahurrrr... sahurrr...!! =)

today went to parkway wif rofi, willy and erny.. rofi bought a candle thingy for his teacher... willy bought a fragrance thingy for ms ngor.. so thoughtful of them.. awww.. me??? i didn't buy anything.. hehe..

anyway, tomorrow teachers' day + aces day celebration.. hope everything will go very smoothly =)

gotta be at school by 6.30? omg...

missing my bro these few days.. hahaa..

umm,, many things are going on these few months.. exhausting but luckily you are always there for me.. thanks =)

tomorrow blog again bah.. haha.. lalala..

stay tuned.. =)

2009-07-18T07:11:00.001-07:00

today went to sing post to do project. finally it's improving.
so "lucky" my group is the first one to debate.. zzz.. hope we will do well =)
then wanted to go watch movie.. but for SOME reasons that are sooo unreasonable...
ended up didn't go..nvm nvm...

then wanhao and billy sent me home..then they very bored..so decided to play at the playground...wh played the swing soo funny..he played till the swing shook..hahaha..
then we talk talk for soo long.. wh sooo hilarious.... hahaha.. thanks to both of them my mood changed...in a good way =) thanks wh n billy!

then went to woodlands for religious class.. watched about how Islam was first "created".. interesting..i'm now like in love with the Prophet Muhammad..haha..
then went home...and the stress came back.. haha...

still trying to be happy.. =)
byebyebye

2009-07-17T07:08:00.000-07:00

so long nvr blog.. haha
soo many things to say but sooo little time..
lalala..

all in all.. the point is IT'S OVERRR...

i'm tireddd.. sec 3 life is sooo busy..
so disappointed in myself...useless...hopeless...

anyway, went to watch HARRY POTTER...
there were like 20 of us? lols..
there was one part when harry potter was like taking some water from the cave? i dunno..
then suddenly got some disgusting funny creatures caught his hands.. then billy, me and sugi
jumped.... so funny... sugi laughed like soo loud..
oh then u know.. i was like eating the popcorn.. then suddenly i felt something wet in the popcorn box.. scaryy.. the popcorn was like soooo soft... eeewww... then we concluded that there was an ice cube in the pocorn... grossssss...

umm,, tomorrow going to sp to meet up wif my debating group.. debating not done..
camp presentation not done... homework not done... never study... what a wonderful life.. hahaha..

umm.. trying my best to be happy... lameeee..

byebyebye

back from Malaysia! ( tired tired tired )

2009-06-07T06:17:00.000-07:00

finally . blogging again .
jus returned from Malaysia . tired.. haha .
it was fun.. many things to tell but lazy type^^
anyway , a few days ago , it finally happened . i managed to say it . ( omg! )
haha.. satisfied.. though not a happy ending but still.....
just a few words.... it's true . i want you to know it . i'm sorry . i'm not worth it .
crappp :D

anywayyy , my allergy ! is ! annoying ME ! omg . can't stand it .
it's like soooo irritating when you wanna swallow but cannot . and you have to wait for 1 min
before you can swallow again . aaaarrgghhh !! and and it's sooooo tiring when you wanna breathe but your nose is blocked ! omg . thanks to papa i got this kind of nose . zzz .
going for operation SOON ! ASAP !

then when we were in Malaysia , we went to this Pasar Malam .
it was soooo hot that i sweat like mad . then Boss asked, " Nona, you just finished bathing or what ?? " lolss . oh then we watched this man , who can opened a coconut with his wrist ? something like that . and he sells oil or whatever . quite interesting though .

okay , tomorrow then i continue about the Malaysia thingy . about swimming and all . so stay in tuned . hahas .

tomorrow SL camp .
err .. am i supposed to look forward to it ? cuz i'm soooo tired .
nvm . just try to enjoy it to te fullest ! :X

today unpacked stuff from Malaysia , packed stuff for tomorrow's camp .
then got to unpack stuff from camp , and pack stuff for Indo .
then got to unpack stuff from Indo , and pack stuff for Racial Harmony camp .
then unpack those stuff , and pack stuff for school !
what the....... so many packing . haiz ..

nvm . must still smile ! :D
jy nona ! tired but it's worth it ! (?)

sad sad sad..

2009-05-21T07:06:00.000-07:00

today dunno why couldn't wake up. my eyes felt sooo heavy.. *yawn.

in class kept falling asleep. nerd... malay was quite fun. created a malay blog. lolss..

sugi was so funny... hahaha.. got back geo result.. can be improved :)

after school got PL meeting. followed by farewell party thingy.. Jiboon, you can do it! You are

a capable leader. dun ever give up :) dun be so negative. nth wil happen. dun lose hope....

after meeting ate lontong with simin.. haha.. then talk talk.. went to see chemical car ppl..

so cool.. just by using hydrochloric acid and baking powder, the bottle can go so far. haha.

impressive! :)

after that went to see the badminton competition. william played so well.. but he lost.. nvm..

then went home. little did we know that he was supposed to play again for the final.. haha.. he thought dun have already.

anyway, thanks honey for accompanying me today. maybe you just didn't feel like going home..

told william to go home first cuz wanted to see honey off.. could see you were in tears. wanted to ask you but.................nvm..useless...wats the point anyway....

i cant do anything...

your bus came, and you went off..

i sat alone waiting for my bus...somehow hoping that he would appear and hoping

that he wouldnt come out..dilemma...

in the end......my bus won....disappointed but yet relieved, i board the bus..

met yiling and her fren..

walked home alone..dunno why felt so lonely and down suddenly...

maybe still not used to it..we had been going home together..talking nonsense..

but now you are gone... make me confused...

haiz...

enough for today.. watching boys over flower.. so gooood :)

tmr choir.. election...hope the best will happen..

2009-05-20T07:57:00.000-07:00

Today got back english compre. disappointing.
i'm sorry.... i will work harder! :)
choir was okay. actually the song is nice but i was in a bad mood.
so.....it became annoying.. election is gonna be held on friday.
pls volunteer to be the conductor. we really need you...
then after choir.. mr riffaii called minki. cuz he was said to have "vandalized" something.. haha. then he had to write a report.. poor minki..
at home play play play.so free now. i realise tat it's not that hard to avoid you after all.. now i know how you feel, and i have decided to support you. you don't like it then i don't like it too. though it hurts but it's the best right?
haha. crappzz..
hope tomorrow will be a better day for me. i want proof... haha..

2009-05-18T07:22:00.000-07:00

today. as usual. woke up early. exam is over. pheww.

yesterday. CIP performance. choir performed. My Name is Music was not so good. cuz maybe it was our first song. then Rhythm of Life was better. cuz got movement and the song is fast. very catchy. last but the best, Top of the World. everyone was enjoying it. overall, i just wanna say thank you to mrs Chan for giving me and simin the opportunity to perform :) to the rest of the choir members who performed yesterday, well done. you all have done a wonderful job. guys, you have put effforts to memorise the songs in just a few days! bravo! :D

today got back results... disappointing.. not up to my expectations.. but nevermind. i promise i will do much better for EOY. yeah! jy nona!

just now rained.. so coldddd.. grrrr.. i sat near the window.. wahhh..

the cold wind made my bones numb.. zzz.. english compo..

to my classmates : you all have done well.. but sure can be improved! u wanna cry now, go ahead. but remember it's not the end of your life. still got EOY. don't worry. cheer up guys! :D

km ga ngmg sm skali ke ak. ak liat km tp km diemin aja. km knp? koq murung teruz?

km ga sewaktu km sedih di belakang, ak nangis di depan. waktu km nangis disana, ak ga bs ap2. ak datengin km. wkt liat km, ak lemes. km sedih bgt. maaf ak ga bs ap2. mau comfort km jg ak takut. takut nyakitin km lg. maaf.

udh lah. jgn sedih lg yach. i trust you. you sure can overcome this. i'll be by your side. don't worry honey. love ya :)

:)

2009-04-04T12:06:00.000-07:00

Finally can blog again . today nothing much .
stomach cram . painnnn .. heart pain ..... again .. haiz .
Simin n "him" ... nice relationship u all had .
maybe now is not the right time yet :)
be patient people .. if both of u are fated, someday u willbe together :)
believe in destiny and faith ..

Now it seems like everyone is in a relationship while i'm rotting at home .
i have lost trust in you . sorry ..
16 times man .. wow! (dun understand then too bad)

Oh about the international friendship day thingy,
IT'S NOT LIKE WHAT YOU ALL THINK!!!
Aarrgghh ... !! He anyhow wrote that message ..
this goes to everyone who read it . especially those sec 2
people from band . please .. dun misunderstand us .

hr ini , km blg k ak ttg masa lalu . bikin ak skt hati lg .
km ga tw gimana sakitnya ak waktu itu . ak yg udah tunggu km ..
tp ternyata km malah pergi k org laen . sms km itu .. ak ngerti .
tp sorry ak masih blom bisa percaya . it's all too fake .

hope tomorrow will be a better day than today ..
bye people :)

erny! i love u! thanks for the code! u r sooooooo clever... :)

2009-03-19T06:24:00.000-07:00

finally can blog again. though this will be like the last time?
haiz. pathetic me. haha.
today went to the workshop. quite fun.
learnt a lot of things about business. hahaha.
now gotta work harder for the project.
what a useless leader i am.. haiz.
sorry jiboon, gomathi, xiao ling..
jiboon : punctuality! hahas. dun forget to call the children's home ya :)
gomathi : u rock gurl! so hyper. hahaha. let's think harder bout what to sell :)
xiao ling : wow! you are like the only one who got ideas. good work. keep it up! :)
we are lacking behind but nvm. we can do it people! haha..

tomorrow going out with auntie Mas' fam.
sure will be fun :) yeah..

I HAVEN'T FINISHED MY HOLS HW!
Aargghh..!!

saw ur blog today. i read EVERYTHING.
even small things matter a lot.
you may feel that you need me more than i need you.
but i have also asked people (my mom especially).
she feels the same way as me..
i have told you everything.
i am tired of being the one who needs you instead of being needed.
you may feel differently. but.... i dunno..
you dunno what have happened to me throughout these 2 years of our friendship.
you have also told me that you don't want to give up on this friendship.
i appreciate it. thanks a lot..
but better think twice.
if you make this decision, we may suffer..
i don't like that feeling.

haizz.. now you know everything.
my story ends here. period.
dun be sad. do some self-reflection. it may help.

i'm tired.. tired of EVERYTHING :)

vanathi : be patient. i will help you :)
vincent : take care in indo. don't worry, i will sms you again. haha. miss you :)
erny : THANKS FOR THE COMMENT!! you are so clever. thanks for the code. AAARRGGHHH...!!!
a.maz : let's have fun tomorrow :) thanks
diana : yg langgeng ya sama dia :)
laksmi : you think so far.. *jam jam jam.. haha.
erwin n jonathan : diem ya. whatever you know, keep it to yourself..
jacky : "jana..jana.." hahahaha :D
riana : we have some stuff in common huh... hmm.. :)

enough for today.
must wait 2 more years till i blog again...
hahahaha..

bye :)
love ya........... (except some)

2009-03-14T04:07:00.000-07:00

HEYYYYYYYYY :)
this is erny, nona's housemate!
she's like, sittin next to me, begging me to accompany her,
go eat ._.
HEHEHE. pangsehying her xD

she's like, using my laptop to check ppl's blog.
then when it came to her blog,
i realised she's been MIA-ing for like, forever(:
so decided to extra extra help her update a lil'.
she's a bored fool, alot of housemate went back indo.
left her, so i come un-bore her! :D
its a new word i created, copyright intended, & all those stuff.

she's eating now.
LET ME GOSSIP ABOUT HER :DD
SHES TERRIBLE.
JUST KIDDING ><
she's awesome.
very nice, and kinda short.
BUT LIKE MUCH THINNER THAN I AM. SHOOTS.

alrighty. th next time i 'help' her blog,
i'll talk about her BEAUTIFUL life story.

GOODBYE :D
- ernyyyyyyy

hooolllaaa... =)))

2008-12-31T05:31:00.000-08:00

hihi.. it has been veryyyyyy longggg since i last blog-ed.. -.-"
i'm currently stationed at Jakarta..
went to bandung, dufan..
sooo funn.. anyway,,
MERRRRRY CHRRRISTMASSS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!
=)))))))))
hope next year, which will be tomorrow, will be a muchhh better year for me.
and YOU! =)
sooo many things to wish for..
and
HAPPY BELATED B'DAY TO :
-AMELIAH
-SIHUI
-ZHENGHAN
-HERI
-CAREL
-OM HERU
-OTHERS..

overall.....
this end-of-year holiday was fun but..
i have decided it's useless to go back.
I'd rather stay in sgp eventhough i have to study.
seriously, i feel so.......... dunnno la..

anw, i hope that next year happiness, peacefulness, n prosper will shower me..
yeahh.. n all the troubles will shooo..!!
amiiinn..

gtg. bb! =)

can i be happy forever...???

2008-12-12T07:47:00.000-08:00

hiiii.. i know i've been neglecting my blog. sorry.. (though no one will care..)
zz..

watever..

yesterday went back to my pri school. soooo funn. got to meet my teachers..
they even asked me to share my experiences studying in Singapore with the accelerated students.. they were onli p5 LOLS.. they sooo funny... we took photos b4 i went home..
then i ran to look for my fave teacher.. finally found him.. miss him soooo much.
we talk for 30 mins then went home wif mama..

today went shopping wif my aunt. she wanted to buy presents for her bf.
so romantic.. after we walked for soooo long, finally she bought a green t-shirt and a jacket..
nice =)
to perry n simin : actually i wanted to buy the things u all asked for.. but for some reasons i didn't buy.. sorry. not today maybe..

will continue blogging tmr..
can't stand it anymore..
bb..

...

2008-12-09T07:53:00.000-08:00

today went to aunt dewi's house to pray for her mother..

supposed to pray based on the whole book..

but just nice when we jus started praying, a blackout happened.

so dark

so creepy..

so we decided not to read the book as it was very dark.

then jus nice again,, when we jus finished praying, the lights on..

so scary..

oh ya i've finally settled things up wif him.

so glad.. thanks for ur decision. i really appreciate it.. =DD

got to sleep now..

-untitled-

2008-11-25T07:30:00.000-08:00

right.. i'm back..
guess it's time to do the quiz that i owe.. sorry. hahas.

Rule #1 People whu have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
Rule #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game sending it to other people.
1. Do you have secrets? yaaa.. Duhh..
2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you? maybe
3. Do you enjoy goin to school? yup=)
4. Which is more blessed,loving someone or being loved by someone? obviously being loved..cuz loving is dammm painful..
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend? can't u see....
6. Who is currently important to you? family, friends, honey..
7. Would you give it all in a relationship? meaning??
8. If the person whom u loved once or now is attached,what will you do? depends
9. What is the most important thing in ur life? thing? phone?
10. What will you do with a billion dollars? too many to list. hehe
11. List out 15 person which you can think of right now.
-My mama
-Honey
-My indo friends
-Him=)
-Karel
-My papa
-Novi jie
-Wenny jie
-Alfred ge
-Tima
-Lala
-Vanathi
-Tiyi
-Perry
-Ken Ken
12. Is there anything that has make you extremely happy? obvious
13. What makes you happy? a lot.
14. What makes you angry? liars
15. Favourite colour(s)? pink,white
16. What is your view towards love? sweet,bitter,complicated..
17. Love or like? loveeeee
18. Would you stead with a guy whom you knew less than 1 week? dunno
19. How are you feeling right now? headache
2o. Tag 5 people for this quiz to pass on. hengleong,vanathi,huijun,perry,mayying

1 quiz done...
still got others. tmr continue..
today stayed at home all day..
i'm dying of boredom!! *sobs...
missing honey and him now... seriously..
tomorrow going out of the city to visit my relatives=)
anyway, thanks honey for helping me. love u.. hahas..
enough. bb.

I'm Back!! ;D

2008-11-12T04:28:00.001-08:00

Hiii..

i'm back to bloging!!

coz i'm in indo already.. so happy :)

today went out to eat and eat and eat..

never stop..

tonight still got date to eat bbq n shabu-shabu...

whoaaaa..

i'm gonna explode le.. haha..

to simin n hengleong.. be patient..

i dun feel like doing the quiz now..

some other day k? sorry..

dunno why but i miss singapore already..

maybe coz i have nth to do here..

haizz. bored bored eat sleep grow fat..

btw, maybe will celebrate new year in korea!!

hehehehe..

awhile more going to jakartaaaa!!

gonna meet wenny jie2, novi jie2 n alfred ge2!!

miss u all so much..

now waiting for papa to come home..

then i will pester him to go to thereeee.. u noe..

those very very cold placessss..

like genting but in indo..

really wanna go there...

oh i forgot.. today went facial also..

now my face is better but thanks to my sensitive skin,

now my face is red n quite swollen..

the girl squeeze my pimples like crazy.

i cried and cried... Lolsss..

p.s.

to u-noe-who :

i really miss u.. take care of urself alrite?

sorry i have broken my promises.. one of my bad character.

sorry sorry.. ( i noe sorry no cure but i dun care..hehe.. )

i hope nothing will change next year..

i hope our relationship can even be better.. :)

enough for today. gotta take care of my bro.. hoho..

THANKS EVERYONE!!

2008-09-10T06:26:00.000-07:00

it has been sooooooooooooooo long since i last post .anyway .today was very fun !though a bit of problems between me n "him" .but it ends up with a happy ending !lolsss..
today simin got terrible stomach ache. pity her. suspect she is pregnant! scary. i let her squeeze my hand. Coz i know how it feels. i have been through it a thousand times. she squeeze like omg.. so tight.
then my head was like cracking for the whole day. i feel like hammering it. so dizzy. jb said it's dehydration since i have been fasting i never drink enough water. thanks jb!
mdm chow nvr come today. slack man! nice.. i got the time to do my art with the help of simin. thanks simin! ve do worksheet. i realised that the passage is really similar to what i'm going through now. STRESS! not enough sleep.. then recess. stay in class. listen to simin mp3 songs. so nice. till i fell asleep.. Zzz... ( naughty peer leaders! ;P )
english.. as usual.. sleep! but suddenly minki pulled my hair. pain. i tried to stay awake. succeeded! yeah.. Thanks Minki!
history. teacher didn't come. given source-based questions. dun understand at all.. totally blank. some more my head so pain. then everyone started calling me. Nona here Nona there.. like a market. they asking for foolscap papers. almost the whole class lehhh. omg. i was very blur coz my head is like spinning. so i gave them. end up my foolscap paper left a bit onli :( mk asked me for foolscap paper in a diff way. omg. can't describe wat he did. ask my friends. they know better.
music. guitar test! was ok. not bad. thanks Mrs Fawzie!
choir. not so good. the alto was soft. need more energy! but they sing sweetly.. :) thanks alto!
after school went to the bus stop together with simin,vincent,jacky,fernando. simin waited for the bus alone. actually i could accompany her coz i needed to go to sp. but fernando told me tp central also have. so i changed my mind. sorry simin.. i really needed to fax smth for my mama. went to tp central with fernando. we talk alot. so fun. then fax the thingy.. the q was sooooo long. Sorry fernando for keeping u waiting for so long. then actually wanted to eat there but i didn't bring enough money. he said use his money first but later i decided i should go home. otherwise my aunty would scold me. on the way to the bus interchange, fernando's head almost hit the Popular thingy. u noe that big big Popular sign. ( big big! doesn't it sound familiar?!!? hmmm.. )
but luckily never kena. otherwise he will be in the hospital now. haha. then he sent me to the q for bus 143 then we parted. Thanks Fernando!
went home. feel so tired. break fast as usual. happy! Thanks Uncle for the abstract dish!
then chat with "him". almost.................. but end up.......................... smilez! ;P
last thing to say : THANKS SIMIN! :)
nothing else. hope i do well for my EOY. Happy fasting!
bye :D

Fine.. Anything tat suits u..

2008-09-01T01:35:00.000-07:00

Back to blogging.. SORRY didn't have the time to blog these few days..
anyway, jus wanna let u noe tat i confronted u bcuz i dun wan u to go around hurting sensitive people.. ak capek bgt tw ga.. km ngerti ga sich prasaan ak gmn? do u know me well enough? huh?!? i know she is MUCH better than me.. i never deny that. but do u have to let me know on that way?!?! isn't there any other ways?! is ur brain that limited?!?! i wanted to tell u nicely.. but halfway u cut me n start scolding me alrdy. wat u think? i'm a robot is it..?!? i'm sure u don't need me to list down EVERYTHING that u did to me.. though ur brain is limited, i'm sure it still can reach that point.. if u stiil dun realise wat u did then i can't say anything liao.. tats ur problem.. but just to let u know, i'm hurt enough.. thank u very much.. u may think i'm childish.. but i dun care.. u wanna avoid me?? go ahead.. be my guest.. maybe that will be better for us.. if u also wanna tell everybody about this, i got nth else to say liao.. that means u just wan everybody including her to hate me as well .. alright.. it's up to u.. btw,, i know how u feel.. but hellooowww.. u r a muslim.. a muslim is not supposed to take revenge.. though u r always kicked out, doesn't mean u can anyhow kick other ppl out.. especially those who didn't do anything wrong to u.. ti still could let u off the first time u hurt me.. the second time too.. i tried to be patient.. n i also wanted to see whether u will do it for the third time.. true enough.. u did it for the third. fourth, fifth, sixth, all the way till i had to tell u.. if u feel that ii ever hurt u, let me tell u this.. is bcuz u hurt me first! i'm not a person lyk u who hurt innocent ppl for no reason! i thought we could be good friends.. but alas.. all is a waste.. my effort, my patience.. all drown into the river.. i'm so totally disappointed in u.. km jg.. bukannya ak ga mau crita ma km.. ak kan lg bad mood.. lg mls.. km jgn seenaknya ngmg kyk gt dunkk.. apa best friend ga ad d dictionary mu.. km aj ga bs ngerti.. gmn mo dpt best friend.. but nvm.. if u wan us to be apart, then let it be lorhhh.. jus make it clear once n for all.. so that we dun have to pretend anymore.. the sooner the better.. jus clarify it.. dun hold it longer.. it will just hurt u even deeper.. if there is no best friend in ur dictionary, then i'll support u.. fine.. Thanks for being my "best friend" these past few months.. i guess it's all over now.. whatever ur choice is, i'll support u.. happy??
hmm.. enough of all those liao.. tonight my bro is coming back.. now is the fasting month alrdy.. can't get angry.. i will forgive everything that u have done to me.. be it recently or in the past.. whoaaaa.. got so many hw.. but so little time.. haizz... i'd better go now.. my eyes r getting hotter.. bye.. love u all..

... happy not happy...

2008-08-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

EVILLLL.... why do i feel so weird today...

2008-08-25T06:27:00.001-07:00

today.. Monday.. soooooooooo busy.... haiz..
no asssembly.. DnT got a bit of scolding from mr wee cuz nvr bring aprons.. everyone was so pissed off la.. then recess... was talking wif simin.. suddenly they came.. again... out of the blue... lolssss.. weirddddd... then mdm chow's lesson.. didn't get to study cuz she brief us on the streaming subjects.. scaryyyy.. must start choosing subjects liaoo.. i'll discuss with Aunty..She knows me better than i know myself lol.. then after school rehearse the emcee thing.. little did i realise that i dun have to be the emcee.. what the helllll.. waste my time only.. haiz.. nvm.. then got the science IPW.. ok la.. then went for the dance rehearsal.. so fun.. but honestly,, i could not help but kept breaking down for the whole day.. i can still feel the pain... soooo deeeepp... *sobs.. ohh.. when i was in the bus going home, my bro called me.. he told me that he would be going back to indo also.. what the helllll.. now, all my family members have gone back to indonesia!!! ALL THESE IS JUST BECAUSE OF HIM!!! he is so damn spoilt.. right after they left the house, i broke down again.. i cried n cried n cried till my eyes r swollen, my face is bloody red.. my whole pants is wet.. omg.. i feel like as though i've been played out.. why are you so brainless.. you spoil everything. my mum is not here with me now.. just when i need her the most.. you have chased her away.. you have chased my family away.. soon you will chase me too.. right..??? i really feel like running away... to my mum.. ohh.. i got to say smth for JADE.. JAAADDEEE...!!! how can u do that?? i'm so disappointed in you.. pls.. dun ever do that again.. it's a useless thing to do.. you will not gain anything from it.. and for SIMIN.. simin.. thanks for making my day a good one today. though i couldn't show it, but i really appreciate it.. thanks a lot.. you made me laugh like hell.. you made me so happy that i forgot about him.. but i'm all alone now.. so hopeless n small.. :( nth else to blog.. so sleepy liao.. gd night..

EVEN MORE STRESS...!!! WHOAAA..!!

2008-08-24T05:16:00.000-07:00

Today.. Sunday..
Went to Mustafa Centre wif mama, aunty re, jo2, gr-gr-grandma..
Then Perry called.. ask me to be emcee.. i agreed.. didn't know how much stress i would face.. hahas..
Then at home chat wif perry,jianboon,yanru,russell,simin.. me,perry,russell did the script..
SOOOOOOOOO HARDDDD..!!
but we managed to finish it.. still got one more job : Science Note for MinKi.. haiz..
oh ya.. i got something that is stuck in my heart that i wish i can shout it out loud. and i think now is the suitable time to say it.. my mama told me something about him.. now then i realise tat he is a really idiot heartless brainless irritating horrible person.. What did my brother do to u?!?! He is only 3 years old!! wat do u expect!! i thought u can set a good example for him cuz u r already 14!!! i'm so damn disappointed in u!! do u know that because of u my parents have to go back to indonesia tmr..??? they have to get my brother as far away as possible from u..!! do u know that my parents have planned to stay here in Singapore to spend the Hari Raya Puasa and spend the fasting month wif me.. cuz it's the first time we can celebrate Hari Raya Puasa together as a family after 3 years!! do u know that i've been praying for that for very long already.. i pray very hard so that i can be wif my family on that day.. and now.. u make my brother suffer lyk hell.. u separate me wif my family.. f*** u... wat the hell!!! i wish u die now. at this moment.. NOW!!! readers, tis is a few things tat he n his sis said to my brother.. :
everybody were talking about cars i think..
then my 3-year-old brother said : i also have cars
he said : who asked u?! nobody asked u!
then my bro face was like so sad la.. u imagine if people tat u look up to do tat to ur baby bro? or to u? how will u feel..??
then 1 more incident.
his sis got a bottle of chocolate. then my baby bro wan some. he is only a kid. he does not know anything.. he came up to me :
my bro : jie jie, i wan the chocolate.
me: go and ask her for some
my bro : jie, you ask her for me. i'm scared.
me : you ask. it's ok.
then he went to her and ask her. then he came back to me with a sad face n half crying and said : she dun wan to give me.
my heart sank.. i almost cried on the spot.. then i think she know that she dun wanna give my bro so she quickly came and give the chocolate to my brother. i was like wat the hell la.. if lyk this then wat happen all day when i'm at school..?!?! omg..
there are still other incidents which mostly involved him n my bro.. my mum can't take it anymore. she can't bear to see my bro being treated like that. so she decided to go back to indo tomorrow!! n she is not sure when she'll come back! like this i won't have the chance to celebrate Hari Raya wth her!! ALL THIS IS JUST BECAUSE OF YOU!! STUPID IDIOT PERSON!!can u just go and die now.. u dun deserve to be alive anymore!! if it's not for the sake of ur mother n my parents, i'd have run away..
what did my brother do to you?? what did he do wrong?!?! though he is just a baby, but he got heart! and he got his family here!! you make me cry everyday n everytime i see your face! aren't you satisfied yet?!?!
the point is you have broken my family apart, my hope is gone now, my whole family is suffering because of u.. I HATE YOU TO THE CORE!!! *sobssssss...

STRESS is Back...!!!! *sobs

2008-08-20T05:54:00.000-07:00

So pissed off today.. u all make me feel like..... nvm..
mama....papa..... cepet pulang.... ak cape disini ndiri..
God... pls.. beri ak kesabaran.. *sobs..
how do u think u can be accepted in the school wif 10% for maths n 20% for english...?!?!? u still can play n laugh lyk as though nth happen.. can u imagine how i feel..??!?! and you, ***** you have been ignoring me these few days. you have been behaving strangely.. dunno wats wrong wif u.. you change a lot. so disappointed in you.. haiz..
today is the first time in my whole life simin straight away go home after school.. cool..
could concentrate during mdm chow' s lessons.. cuz i forced myself de.. haha.
went to my old guardian's house to fetch my bro.. then went home by bus.. met ting ting lao shi wif her son.. at ceylon met rofi, william, etc.. miss them all..
at home talk to my aunt abt my bro's school.. then swim wif ken2 n mila.. quite fun.. could be happy for awhile.. then cooked fish for ken2 while carel wif jojo in the room do wat i dunno.. i was expecting him to at least help me feed ken2 or wat..
he didn't.. done eating tried to study. couldn't concentrate. go online chat wif simin.. then blog till now lol..
then you... go flirt some more wif him la.. u think i care..?!?! i got other things to do rather than envying u.. who do u think u are..!?!? i can just tell my aunt n u will be dead.. good for u. and can u stop telling me how close both of u are and wat u have been doing with him.. tell u one more time, though i'm sure u won't be able to read I DON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT IS HAPPENING BETWEEN YOU AND HIM.. UNDERSTAND..?!?! i'm sorry but i don't the least bit jealous of u.. i dun think it's worth it.. nvm.. dun make me even more stress just bcuz of a person like u..
tmr coming home late again.. haiz.. so tiring..
but nvm..bcuz i won't be able to see your face at home for the whole day. and when my parents are back, you won't be able to flirt with him liao.. good for him.. not for you.. cuz he doesn't deserve you.. oh my god i'm so bad.. sorry..
tired liao. have to rest.. night. bye :)

STRESS RELEASED..!!! pheww..

2008-08-15T04:36:00.000-07:00

Finally!! Choral Assessment is OVER..!!! so pheww... the examiner said we were ok.. did a good job.. keep it up gals..!! b4 the choral assessment my tears suddenly poured out.. dunno why.. too nervous i tink.. then after the choral assessment also same.. my body felt very heavy.. couldn't walk properly.. sifaya n irfana had to support me.. all the feelings mixed together like rojak.. then we all (Emerald) went to the foyer to take pics.. wa... all so zi lian.. took A LOT of pics.. but was very fun.. then they all sat on the steps while i stood and talked to them.. the security guard was looking at us.. wa... so wat lol.. anw.. then i began talking abt how happy i am.. i talked talked and talked till tears come out again. then mon san also start crying.. sifaya irfana join also.. wa... the atmosphere was soo... dunno how to say.. i'm so cengeng... then we sang a few songs.. talk talk.. clap hands.. sing a song for the security guard.. then saw monfort boys streaming in.. then they all went home.. n all my stress r gone!!! not all la.. but partly.... haizz...
FOR THE EMERALD MEMBERS..
** honestly i'm very proud of u all.. i didn't expect u all to perform this well.. serious.. i'm happy.. i hope u all will continue working hard for the choir.. keep it up!! hahas. i'm glad i could be ur leader though i didn't really did a good job.. i know u all were irritated by me.. i'm sorry but it was for the sake of our group.. Let's just pray we can pass.. or maybe aim higher!! get distinction!! haha.. anw.. and i'm sorry if i ever did something wrong to u all.. thanks a lot girls.. love u all..!!! cya.. :) **